UP, DOWN, AND SIDEWAYS, BUT REALLY I DON'T KNOW

My so call relationship has had its ups and downs and most recent its been sideways. Sideways in a way that I don't know where we stand with each other. I don't know , I DON'T KNOW I DON' T KNOW. THE SEX IS GOOD BUT THE TIME OUT OF BED IS TENSE. I KNOW I'M GUARDING MY HEART, AND I'M GOING TO KEEP DOING SO BECAUSE EVERY TIME I LET HIM IN HE BREAKING IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN. I DON'T KNOW.